When I questioned my purpose in life – I made a list of all the things I knew I was.
It was clear; I knew who I was as a wife, daughter, sister, and friend. I even knew who I was as an employee.
The problem was, deep down, I didn’t know who I was without these labels.
This was unsettling.
I thought I’d share a few things I did to help dig deep into my soul that lead me on the road to self-discovery.
I am still learning things about myself (daily!) but deep down I know who I am and am proud of the person I am today.
I became curious.
It didn’t happen overnight, but with continued curiosity and continued soul-searching, things became clear.
One reason people seek a higher power is when they are questioning their purpose – and I was that person.
I researched. Researched a lot! I read everything I could about faith, doubts, discrepancies, and hypocrisies. I still do this daily. I’m never satisfied with status quo, always seeking improvement.
As you ask questions and find answers, you recognize you’re not alone. You realize there is a whole community of people with your same thoughts.
Start a Journal
I never enjoyed writing in a diary. It always seemed like a pointless and non-productive activity. However, I couldn’t ignore that each time I read about how to reflect, soul-search and be productive, the answer always came back to – journal daily.
So I bought a journal. It took a while for me to enjoy it, but I found a groove that works for me.
The simple process of writing things down, getting my ideas and thoughts from my head onto paper was a life changer for me.
I remember my 4th-grade teacher saying that there is a particular chair he spends time in when he speaks to God. When his wife or kids saw him in this chair, they knew not to interrupt him.
I found my spot.
There is a spot in my living room, on the couch where I meet God every morning. I get up early every day without fail and spend time in prayer, bible reading, meditation, and deep thought.
Set my alarm
When I felt God only met me on the couch, I knew I had to shake things up. I set the alarm on my phone daily at 12:00 pm and 5:00 pm to remind myself to say a prayer and have a quick conversation with God.
Weird, I know, but I had to trigger myself out of my fast-paced, routine environment.
This was a good way for me to
1) remember to speak to God
2) think of God as a person
3) taking a quick break to re-center and refocus
After doing this for a few weeks, I received signs. Crazy signs! Signs that would cause the hairs on my arms to raise. My heart would flutter because I would recognize these “coincidences” and think to myself how crazy it was.
I can only attribute these so-called coincidences to the supernatural, a higher power.
Full disclosure, I’m not saying you have to believe in a higher power to experience these things and to discover who you are.
All I can say is, this is how it happened in my life – this is my experience.
My story of discovering who I am includes a personal relationship with God.
The more I spent time in introspection and with God, the more God became present in my life.
Try it for 30 days and see what happens!